prayers, prayers and more prayers...

i haven't written in a few days but things are crazy around here trying to get everything ready for three birthdays. i am writing because i have a few things that are bothering me and i am trying to be a "strong christian" and let God be in charge but i am struggling. i have recently repented of my sins and ask for forgiveness that when i am put in negative situations that they not control my life and my Christianity but i can fight this negativeness with prayers. i am working hard but satan is right there too. august 26th we found out that we are getting blessed with a precious baby girl and so far she is looking good. we are excited and why would i want to hide this. i am not. people at church, my friends and family have already been showering me with love, support and gifts for this new little princess. i love it and i appreciate every bit of it. God has blessed us with a child. A gift from God, don't expect me to wipe a smile off of my face or not mention her. thank you God for AraBelle. along with this precious child i have two amazing boys that God has given us. Noah..wow, where do i start. a true gentlemen..and he is only 11. he is the most kind-hearted kid i have seen at age 11. he knows who he is and will not give any less than that. he is a leader. this is not just my own judgement but most everyone i come in contact with pours blessings on me about him. a guy that we attend services with (who was at one time a principle) makes it a point to let me know that noah is one of the most respectful children he has ever met. a camp director who is over a christian camp has come to me on several occasion and told me that he is going to use noah to make this camp be one of the best. meaning he is using noah to find out about certain leaders there. (again noah is 11) so i think you can see my point. what a wonderful blessing to have such a great child. thank you God for noah. then there is Garrett...once again where do i start with him. first of all, he has a good heart and he is very kind. he just does not show it like noah...yet. he has been 100% boy since i birthed him. he is very independent and he sees things only in black and white. he will take nothing in between and is brilliant. his prayers are amazing and he is only 3. he prays daily and never misses a prayer at meal time. i am constantly told by people how amazing he is and that they really cant believe he is 3. such a blessing. thank you God for garrett. i love my kids and people around me love them too. how much more could you ask for.
so...i guess you are wondering what prayers, prayer and more prayers are for. first, that i continue to be strong and keep my Christianity strong during negative situations. as i have written above that i am blessed with 2 wonderful boys and 1 princess on the way and if people have a problem with this then let me pour prayers out for them. apparently, something is wrong in their life. second, this is a way i have been feeling lately and i am trying not to be this way. "me and my kids (usually my mom) go places. we have too. we have duties to fill, errands to run, things to buy, etc. if you know we are somewhere and you have such a problem with me and my kids then choose not to be around us." pray that i can turn this into a positive thing. not sure how but that is why i am writing. i am asking for help. third, that i can continue this positive attitude about our little girl that is on the way. i am scared but i know God is in control. fourth, to not ask why but to pray for those certain people who think it is necessary to let me know that they think my kids are terrible. fifth and last, just pray that i continue to let God be in control .
sorry so long. i appreciate any and all advice you have to give. if you want to email me advice so that it is not public, feel free. caseyishee@cableone.net

i will post again after this weekend. we will have made it through the birthdays and i will have some pics to post.